I saw a side of people I didn’t know or want to see.
I saw that we are all damaged.
I saw that hurt people…hurt people, and that has nothing to do with me.
I saw who was there for me and reached out when I didn’t.
I saw that we all have stuff going on…even the ones who look like they have it all together.
I saw what I wasn’t willing to put up with anymore.
I saw my worth is found in GOD alone.
I saw what happens when you truly lean into God and seek him.
I saw that my purpose, peace, and strength are found in God.
I saw God in the details.
I saw that I don’t need to explain to people.
I saw that intimacy and honesty with GOD are far better than religion ever will be.
I saw that God will love me wherever I am, just as I am.
I saw that God is a finisher, faithful, and true.
You always hear people say 2020 was a year of unprecedented times. What was 2020 for you? Like really, what hit you in the gut about this year? It was a very telling year for me. Corny enough, it was like I had 2020 vision for the first time in a long time.
I guess I got lost and caught up in life and going through the motions of motherhood and wifehood and working momma and all the titles, right? This year God has really spoken to me about how much more important my heavenly name is than any title I could ever have here on earth. If you are like me, that is a tough pill to swallow when you pride yourself on being the best momma and the best wife and all the things we strive to be, day in and day out. Striving to be perfect is hard…..quite frankly, it’s exhausting! That’s because we weren’t created to be perfect! That’s why Jesus came and died for us.
Last year was hard, but at the same time, I am forever grateful for 2020, the year I saw. I have always known God. I grew up in church and even worked for our church for a year. God showed me that he would love you at whatever level you are until you decide to go deeper and pursue him more. 2020 is the year I truly saw God on another level.
God has taught me so much about who I am, whose I am, and the Great I am!! GOD has shown me that this is exactly where I am meant to be! He is molding me and establishing me in his image and likeness. Showing me what it’s like to walk with the great I am in me and me in him. It hits differently when it gets in your heart! Don’t get me wrong; I am still broken…he is still creating HIs masterpiece with my broken pieces. I trust him more and more each day and with more and more. Yall that is huge for this control freak with daddy and trust issues…But GOD. I am confident and expectant that God will always take my mess and turn it for good and His glory. I also know that God must break me so He can restore me. Thankfully He is gentle, patient, and compassionate.
Find yourself in a tough spot? Or even reflecting on this last year of unprecedented times. I am here to tell you to dig a little deeper. What is it 2020 taught you? What did you see? What is God teaching you in this season?
Heavenly Father, I pray everyone reading this today sees you clearly. Father, reveal to us what it is you want us to learn in this season. Father, we thank you for opening our hearts, minds, and souls to receive what you want to do in us and through us. Father, help us to have to see the good, a heart that breaks for what breaks yours, a mouth that speaks of your love and kindness, hands that help bring others to you, and feet that walk in your destiny. Father, we thank you for a new day. We thank you for your plans for us today. Father, help us see you in the details you have prepared for us. Reveal more of you to us and who you are calling us to be. Thank you for being so patient with us. Thank you for loving us, right where we are and just as we are. Thank you for your glorious inner work. Thank you for being so gentle with us. There is nothing our God cannot do! Thank you, Lord, for carrying us and covering us with your amazing grace. In your son Jesus mighty name Amen.
Jeremiah 29:13-14 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. 14 I will be found by you,” declares the Lord, “and will bring you back from captivity. I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you,” declares the Lord, “and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile.”
Ephesians 3:16 I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, 17 so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, 18 may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, 19 and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
Acts 26:18 To open their eyes, so that they may turn from darkness to light and from the power of Satan to God, that they may receive forgiveness of sins and a place among those who are sanctified by faith in me.